After writing the post yesterday about not liking to wake up at 5am, I awoke today at 4:30am before my alarm went off. I was wide awake, felt fully rested and ready for the day. Go figure!
3 classes this morning and I’m not needing a nap after lunch. It dawned on me that I did not eat properly yesterday. Skipped my juice because I chose to snooze another 15 minutes. Bad idea! I then remember a comment a teacher I took class from those several weeks back. It was great class and I loved the teacher, but at the end of the class the teacher mentioned they were still accepting food donations for their food drive. Cool, right? I was a little taken off guard when he politely said, “of course only vegetarian food items please.” I wasn’t offended nor do I have any strong feelings against vegetarians or any type of “tarians.” I was a vegetarian for two years. It worked great for the first year and half or so but I recently “switched” back because my body starting changing in so many ways that my diet was no longer making me healthy.
It was this shift in my body that got me thinking more about his comment. As teachers (of any sort), I feel we have to be extra aware of the messages we send and the things we say. Sometimes we say things like what that teacher said that can be perceived as “I only support vegetarians” or whatever your little brain starts to filter out. I start to think again and wonder if someone who needs food is going to be picky about whether it’s vegetarian or not? Well I guess that’s besides the issue…
My challenge these past few weeks has been around how I am projecting my personal values, philosophies, etc when I’m teaching. I’ve gotten so caught up in it that I have stopped “preaching” altogether what people may think of as “new agey” stuff. I’ve been focusing mainly on asana and keeping people focused on their bodies. I’ve gotten mixed feedback. Many of the students have been beaming with happiness and giving me great feedback after class. They’ve raved about how great the class was. The funny thing is it’s the same standard sequence I always do. What’s the difference? More silence. The feedback I’ve gotten from teachers is that I’ve apparently started to appear less personal and not showing my “true” self.
I’ve also noticed the trend in the “preaching” that teachers do. It’s all canned one-liners or some cliche phrase or quote. After hearing them in my head and hearing myself saying them, I’m sick of them. I wonder if students notice these too.
I continue to learn. There’s always something new to discover about the self. And maybe since I’m teaching 15! classes, I’ll discover something sooner!
Until then, I challenge you to take a look at how you unconsciously try to push your values or philosophies onto others.